Building tops and ledges

[Soleia Reiss]

[Jacinth Visor]

It was nearly dawn. The sky was a light grey while a few starts still twinkled in the west. Crie had been awake and on the roof for an hour, meditating again. Soon Soleia would arrive for her training. Crie was ready as she reflected on the past and the future.

[Soleia Reiss]

*Takes the elevator up to the roof* *Steps out and into the open air*

[Jacinth Visor]

She stayed in her position, her lightsaber in her hands in her lap. "What is your mission here, Soleia Onlae?"

[Soleia Reiss]

"To follow the will of the force."

[Jacinth Visor]

"There is no Soleia Reiss. There is no Commander Reiss. There is no Darth Mystic. There is you. Soleia Onlae. Just as the sun rises, bringing us a new day; so do you rise out of your past, bring into existence a new person. You will shed all that you have learned. You will destroy all that you have done. For even the good things past learned are tainted by memories of who you have been. Are you willing?"

[Soleia Reiss]

*Feels an aching deep within-- layers and layers of scars from what she has lost and what she has taken from others..* *Closes her eyes* "I am."

[Jacinth Visor]

"Do not carry the burden of your past upon your shoulders. Only carry the lessons they have to offer. No longer live in regret to what you have done. But in hope to who you can be and will become." The sky had gotten lighter, more blue, the sun would soon peak over the building tops. Crie rose to her feet. "It is time to tear down those walls." She turned to look at her. "You need them no longer."

[Soleia Reiss]

*Nods* ::How?? Just trust, Soleia, you can do it...::

[Jacinth Visor]

"First wall." She started to walk slowly around Soleia. "This burden is hard. This pain is great. You must overcome it. Commander Reiss is no more, Soleia. Take the lessons from what you have done and let the past die. No longer hide from it. Turn and face it. Face it as fact then bury as past."

[Soleia Reiss]

*Soleia's eyes are still closed, but her expression becomes troubled, her brow creased* *Opens the memories of her fall- starting with her brother's death, and the deaths that followed...the one's caused by her hand* *It all focuses into a vivid and painful picture* "Nothing is impossible, young padawan. You can do this. please." *Soleia hears and sees Narijj as if he were right in front of her, she sees herself torturing him, and at last running the saber through his heart* *A tear escapes through her closed eye and goes down her cheek...if she could go back and change just one thing, this would be it* *Whispers* "Narijj, I'm sorry..."

[Jacinth Visor]

Crie spoke quietly, "it is the past, Soleia. Learn from the lesson and then move on. Accept what has happened and then destroy it. Face it and then bury it. Let it rest.

[Jacinth Visor]

"Do not be afraid of it, but do not embrace it until there is no hope of moving on. Leave it where it is, hold it, study it and then let it go."

[Soleia Reiss]

*Soleia reached gently into the force, reaching out for comfort* How can I let this go? She felt something like a breeze cross through her, a peaceful feeling of rest and assurance. Narijj was at peace, there was no sorrow in the death of a Jedi, it was an honor, and that's what he was telling her; his life had been taken by the dark side- not by her-, but he was risen in victory as one with the force. Light had still qonquered and now, for the first time, she was able to see that. *She opened her eyes and blinked. It was gone. At last, she understood how Crie was able to forgive her, and how to forgive herself for Narijj's death*

[Jacinth Visor]

Crie spoke in a whisper, as if she could see Soleia's thoughts, "it was his choice.."
She turned her back to Soleia and looked at the sky, "next wall. The death of your family."