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Post by Soleia Reiss on Jun 23, 2007 14:28:06 GMT -8
"My family..." *Looks off into the distance*
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Post by Jacinth Visor on Jun 23, 2007 14:43:40 GMT -8
"It cannot be helped. It is something that has already happened. Stop blaming yourself for their lives lost. Accept what has happened. Accept the pain and then let it go. Keep their memories alive in you. Do not let their deaths haunt you, let it remind you that evil is in this galaxy and that is why we must work as peace-keepers. Let it remind you to never become what killed your family again. Let them rest in peace." Crie walked up to Soleia from behind and put a hand on her shoulder, "you can do it."
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Post by Soleia Reiss on Jun 23, 2007 14:51:40 GMT -8
*Inhales then sighs* "You're right."
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Post by Soleia Reiss on Jun 23, 2007 15:05:46 GMT -8
*Thinks back to the day she rushed home to find her house burned to the ground, and her father's corpse in the yard* ::If only I had gotten there sooner...:: -_- ::But you can't change it, Soleia, you had no way of knowing, you thought you were protecting them by fighting in Theed. Let it go.:: ::But, it was because of me:: ::No, it was because of the sith:: *Remembers the day her brother was killed* ::That one was becuase of me. They killed him to sway me, and it worked!:: ::But I was going to help him escape, I didn't know they would kill him::
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Post by Jacinth Visor on Jun 23, 2007 15:10:16 GMT -8
Crie feels Soleia let go of another scar. "Imagine all the people you care about right now."
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Post by Soleia Reiss on Jun 23, 2007 15:14:44 GMT -8
*Thinks of Jango, Kistal, their unborn child, Jace and Kalo and their family, Crie and the other Jedi, even Teela and Milo, and ultimately the whole galaxy*
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Post by Jacinth Visor on Jun 23, 2007 15:16:40 GMT -8
"They cannot be a distraction. Do you understand?"
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Post by Soleia Reiss on Jun 23, 2007 15:18:20 GMT -8
"But I lubs Jango!" :B (j/k) ... "Yes, master, I understand."
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Post by Jacinth Visor on Jun 23, 2007 15:25:22 GMT -8
Crie closed her eyes and searched Soleia's feelings. "You are healing yourself, Soleia. You're letting the Force heal you. (Crie's a crummy non-believer in God ) You have one last wall you need to take care of and then you can be free from this bondage. And you know what it is, too." She let the morning breeze wisp over their faces, "you can do this, Crie, and this time you will train her the right way." She took a deep breath and then exhaled, waiting for Soleia to speak.
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Post by Soleia Reiss on Jun 23, 2007 16:05:42 GMT -8
*Soleia closes her eyes and lookes inside of herself mentally a way she'd dared not do for many years now, so frightened and ashamed was she at the idea of what she would find there. But now she looks openly. Crie was right, she was healing herself... but there was still something else. She goes back, scanning the events of her life. And further still. And finally it all leads to one event* *Opens her eyes* "Lorna..."
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Post by Jacinth Visor on Jun 23, 2007 16:11:39 GMT -8
"Yes, Lorna. Her death touched you deeply." She lowers her voice to a gentle whisper, "you've never let it go. You've held onto it for so long that it's become a part of you. You cannot completely start over until you let Lorna's death rest."
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Post by Soleia Reiss on Jun 23, 2007 16:22:04 GMT -8
Lorna always had been a part of her...she was her twin sister, taken from her by a terrible sickness. "That's when it all began, isn't it." Soleia spoke it as more of a statement than a question. After Lorna's death she had shut herself off from everyone around her, and as she grew those feelings became more and more a part of her, and ultimately proved to be the beginning of her problems. Now she must open the doors that sealed her heart. This, she realized, wasn't just a wall, it was the foundation, and she watched it crumble, as she had the other obstacles, until it was a pile of dust.
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Post by Jacinth Visor on Jun 23, 2007 16:26:34 GMT -8
Crie watched her do this then said, "you will find within yourself, now, the real Soleia. The one you have not given a chance to show." She turned toward the east and just as she anticipated, the sun peaked out over the horizon and shown on their faces. "Until now."
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Post by Soleia Reiss on Jun 23, 2007 16:31:51 GMT -8
*Lifts her head and sees the sun rising* Somehow it seemed to Soleia the most beautiful sunrise she had ever seen, becuase it was accompanied by the birth of something new within her own heart.
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Post by Jacinth Visor on Jun 23, 2007 16:35:33 GMT -8
Crie saw in Soleia something she hadn't see in 16 years, that is, the real Soleia. It was almost apparent on her face, her features, she looked younger and less weary. The surprise was barely evident on Crie's face, but it was evident nonetheless.
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